so who's more cruel now??

as usual i walk to work tis morning and i got something a lil' interesting for today cuz it's the first time i get so close wit a COW.

yes,a cow,four-legged tamed animal wit horns.
you can see how quiet they are even there's someone standing beside them.

but everytime i see a cow or juz happen to think of it,i remember an incident happened last few months during the malay fasting month.I heard tis from my malay colleuge past few months before raya.

she told me tat there's someone (malay man) who stole the thigh of a cow around her neighbourhood.Sounds like no big deal right?

no,you're SO wrong.

it's not the chopped piece in the kitchen or so,but it's from the cow that is still alive and being tied up in the farm.i got so emo after i listened to her and for the whole day i feel so down and started to curse the malays.

tis is how the malay man 'steal' the thigh of the cow.

1st he cuts the tendons of the cow so the cow cant run or escape.
2nd he uses the parang blade cut off the thigh of the cow!!!
imagine someone cutting off ur leg while you're SLEEPING.
the cow bleed so much and he cant even survive until the next morning....

the STUPID man did tis just because he has no money for his raya.

the malays pray so much hoping that their lord will protect them and so on.
and tis is how they treat the other living creatures tat their lord create.
why the fuck they need to be protect since they dont even know how to protect others?? wtf....!!! >:-(

how could he do this to the animal?
see how the chinese eat the exotic animals and how they kill those harmless creatures...From where they got all those guts to do these and hell they did these just to get satisfaction for their appetite.

For those who said that the tigers,the lions and leopards are the scariest living creature in the world,im here to tell you that you are SO WRONG,again.



The cold-blooded, cruel, savage,scariest living creature in this world...are us

HUMANS.

laugh your heart out! =D

welcome back to dear sze yi and welcome to Kota Bharu Wei Ying =)

ah..i didnt take photos wit them..shud have take one just now..

gosh my stomuch is so full and i cant sleep...let's see..

1st station-Chiang mai..ate a lot!

*burp*

2nd station-"i forget name" cafe @ jln kuala krai..a cup of cappuccino.

*burrrrp*

3rd station-oriental Kopitiam.had a cup of plain water.

*BuuURrPPPppPP*

*excuse me* ehem.

oh my...my stomuch gonna blast now! keep on burping since i had my meal at chiang mai..ish..pain pain... =(

i feel so happy today..and i laugh a lot!thanks for my dear friends who made me laugh~it's quite embarresing to laugh like monkey but to tell the truth,i feel like im in heaven for 2 seconds.

as for me,im simple.anything tat's funny,i'll laugh like gorilla and i feel happy when my frens laugh along wit me.well,actually they r laughing at me,the gorilla me.hehe =)

sincerely i wish all my friends to smile always and..

LAUGH YOUR HEART OUT Y'ALL !!!

`don't u know tat laughing is also a remedy for stress? =)

sweet memories =)

finally~i had a sleepover at your place last night.
the last time i had tis sleepover at ur place was like months ago or last year.
so sory i could'nt recall.
thank you so much for bringing back all those happy memories we had when we're still very young.do u know tat i oways smile by myself when i remind of some silly things we used to do back then.
i never realize that everything we did in the past can make me feel so proud.Proud that both of us have a perfect childhood in the past years.
maybe u din realized tat i drop my tears of happiness when we're cycling to 7-eleven.im so happy to have the same cycling experience again with you even it's just a short trip to the shop.
everything flash back when im cycling behind you.the same old bike,eventhough it's not the same road,but really dear,u brought back all those sweet memories to me~haha~
but to tell the truth,i really enjoy tis kinda small adventure like how we used to do when we're young.dont u feel so? =)
but luckily we went back home safely with all those junk food hanging on the bike's handle.by the time we reach home,i feel like "yeay!we accomplish our mission again!" haha~silly right?
time passes by,and we are now all grown ups already.u study,i work.
no more badmintons,no more jumping ropes,no more pillow fights,no more masak-masak and we really miss a lot of fun after we grow up.
although there's msn,emails,sms and phone calls to keep us contact but we can hardly spend times together like we used to be now.
i feel sad for the kids now.technologies are now their games.i even came up wit some kids who dont even know what is congkak,skipping stones,masak-masak and the games we used to play while we're young.so dissapointing...

but i hope u know that even if we're far apart,i will always have you in my heart my dear friend.gosh i love you so much~ =D
do come back more often during your holidays~we miss you ^^

p/s:do bring more goodies back from kl when u come back~kekeke =D thanks!

blew it again.

went in the room today.when i hand in the resign letter,he dun wan to accept.
i have to listen to his lecture somemore.but some how he's got the point.
and silly me,have work at the same place again *sigh*

but from tis,i learn something new.
and thanks to my dear colleuges tat help me throughout my working days.
thank you so much! =D

`currently listening to From This Moment - Shania Twain <3

it's time to change!

finally i've made up my mind.im going to resign tis work and yea i will.
today i'll give the letter to boss.hopefully he dun ask too much things.
i hope that i can fit into tis new company.i havent work there yet but soon.
i've been rolling on my bed these late nights coz i cant choose.
but then my mum,giving me the strongest support and said "just change the job dear."
i hope tat im making the right decision.i wan to learn more and tis is my journey in seeking the best job for me.hahas~

i've notice tat im treating my dog badly these days.he's been barking like 24 hours!
he barks when there's something pass by (not those invincible things -.-)
my mum roll up the paper and slap his back.ouch..tat hurts.
but i think he's already numb and dun even scare when my mum roll the paper again.swt.
ah stupid dog.u r cute for me,but y cant u juz behave a lil' bit *sigh*

days like tis are totally boring.i wish there's something interesting happening around me more =)
`i wan go yam cha~
`i wan go shopping~
`i wan go cinema~
`i wan go to the beach~
`i wan to have a sleepover~

i wan i wan i wan! (T^T)

heartache.backache.ouch =(

i made my visit to Dr Chong Clinic again last 2 days.
i believe that everyone will feel uneasy & scare when they knew they are sick.
not flu nor other common sick,itz a sick that normally wont show up in our life.

tis backache of mine is getting worst and the doc advice me to rest more and walk more.haha~
well i do walk more and try not to sit for too long.i brought my cushion for my office chair.
but the prob now is,i cant eat the medicine he gave on time.i feel drowzy after swallowing 2 tablets before i go to work.it should be 3 times per day while i make it once per day...
cant help it..really sleepy..
and if i lay down,i feel a bit pain so i sleep witout pillow under my head.sad.
but still,i hope i can get well soon~gambateh~ ^^

as for the heartache i mention above,itz bout my phone.
ah!he made his first drop tis morning from the torned pocket of my pants.
2 scratches around the screen!
i scream at the street & luckily no one's there.phew~

sob...heartache...pain pain pain... T^T

to do or not to do =\

he's bugging me now.
complaints,shyts,rubbish.
ah,these r the only topics he talks about for the WHOLE DAY.
i swear he said nothing polite and if he does,tat's only for the sake of the customers.
heard from other colleuge saying he's the one who made other ex-newbies to quit this job.
and for sure,im his new target now.
pressure,hatred,humiliations.i really hate how he treats me.
i guess tis is his only entertainment in the office.how pathetic.


should i continue working here or not?
if someone drop by,please do leave me a comment.thanks =)

im a prisoner of love~

i think my diet plan failed again.

i eat,eat eat eat and EAT.

oh gosh.i dun dare to stand on tat weight scale now.

"somebody saveeeee meeeee~~~" - smallville theme.

`currently listening to Prisoner of love - Utada Hikaru

瑛ちゃん誕生日おめでとうございます ~ (^^,)

things i do yesterday & today.


`* sing "Awaking Emotion 8/5" in the bathroom tis morning.
`* keep on smiling to myself today.crazy~ X3
`* he's the only person in my mind and my heart now.only him! (^.^)
`* chat wit valちゃん juz now in msn.
`* make 2 posts in his BBS.
http://www.wentzfc.com/cgi-bin/free/bbs/index.cgi?page=2&show=
`* there's only WaT's songs in my phone and in my ears.hahas~
`* plan to buy a fruit cake later.silly me =)
`* i had the best mood for the first time from june~october.keke
`* i watch WaT's PV & Live Tour 2008 last night in high volume =p
`* went to WaT Bokura no Ibasho Forum.constantly!
`* wondering how he celebrate his b'day today.
`* day dreaming bout him! X)
`* change all my ringtone to WaT's song ^^
`* making a silly wish.hope it come true though =)
`* keep on staring at my phone's wallpaper.

瑛ちゃん & Ozawa君

`* ate only veges today.i like the papaya though.very sweet ~ ^^

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たくさんありがとうございます。

誕生日のメッセージ、たくさんのお気持ちありがとうございます。

まさかまさかの大量のお言葉、めちゃくちゃうれしいっす！！いつも自分の中では誕生日という日をあまり重要視していないんですが、皆さんのおかげでいつも楽しめちゃいます。

本当にありがとうございます。

さぁー二十三歳の抱負なんですが、、、。

何にも考えて、、、ない！そして思い付きもしない！

ごめん！！

今は皆さんのご健康とご多幸をお祈り申し上げています！

これから寒くもなります、残り少ない２００８年を精一杯過ごしましょう！

本当に本当にありがとうございました！！

-瑛ちゃんのblog @ 9/10/2008.

balik kampung =)

the petai

and the finished peeled petai

went back to my grandparent's place yesterday coz my dad wana take those petai for them.my dad bought too much of them and tat's when my mum started to mumbling the whole day.at nite b4 we go depart,me & my mum have to peel those petai and our fingers so pale and like granny's hand ady.sob.

and so after havin our breakfast at Lao Ti Fang,we started our 2 hours car drive to grandparent's place,Temangan.we reach there around 1pm but no one in the house.then my dad went to their rubber estate to find them while me & my mum waiting outside the house.itz been a while we din come and tis is the only kampung tat i love.hehe~ ^^

tat's my grandpa coming back

the neighbour's house.haha =D

after a while my grandpa came back wit his bike and open the door for us.he was very shocked looking at those petais on the floor.he said "y buy so many?and how to finish it?" o.o we said nth and started to carry those petais into house.i got a suprise when i go in.there's a new pup inside wagging his tail~mecha kawaii =D

like father

like son <3

my mama bbq-ing petai

the snacks from USA

after i had my 45minutes nap,my dad's fren who live nearby asked us to join his lunch over his place.tis uncle's place is like the richies in the kampung and sure he is!hehe~i really like his house's design since it's so western =3

she treat us wit a lot's of food and the snacks attract me the most..keke

then i went to the TV room wit a cup of oat drink from auntie...gosh i found a very big mirror in the room!so wat am i waiting for?cam shots of coz XD

i promise to myself tat i will have a room like tis for my future house X)dream house~~~ =>

view 1

view 2

the TV room =]

view 3

view 4

we also had our dinner at his place before we head home.another 2 hours ride but i din feel sleepy since im listening to my mp3.

i've been day dreaming all the way back and recall some memories while im still young.how i spend my new year at my grandparents place,my uncle's wedding,the monkey and so on.gosh....i miss those moments... =)

yeye,mama,i wish tat u will be as healthy as always =)

really sorry for not visiting u constantly even it's a 2 hours journey to ur place...but dun worry!we will oways be there when u need us.always! take care & stay healthy....

`currenltly listening to Jitensha - WaT